stuck in the drive thru window

After an exhausting week at work my ex roommate shows up at my door. "We are going out" she says. I tore off my sweats and put my oil treated hair in a bun. Five minutes and I was out the door, hungry and feelin' a big mac. We hit the nearest Mickey D's closest to our venue. An awkward already high school kid with greasy hair and spacers, worked the late night window. He hands my medium sprite and straw; suddenly, the drive thru window closes on his arm! Frantically, the teen searches for the release button with his free hand. "Are you all right?", I obviously ask. "Naw, it had me for a second but I got it." He responded. I felt so bad for this kid who probably could have done the funniest thing I've seen in awhile. I tried as hard as I could to contain my composure, after all I couldn't afford anyone spiting in my big mac. Needless to say, if I had not gone out, I would have never ventured towards this little adventure.

It is all happening....

Like Penny Lane said in my favorite movie, Almost Famous, "It is all happening.". It is a very vague and broad term, but in my life it really is "all happening", from moving back in with my mom to waiting for my answer to Pratt Institute. Everything sort of happens for a reason and to tell you the truth, I am very happy for that. Go with the flow because the flow is the way to go, some people say. Although they may be right for the most part, I think our own flows are created through our gut feelings and knowing when to strike while the iron is hot, so to speak. We are put here on this earth to create our own happenings in our lives. I had this crazy art teacher once who said to me, "when you paint you are connecting with the universe and the universe tells you what to do." and now, I apply that theory to my own life and not just paint. My life has become my canvas and every move that I make becomes a brush stroke. Depending on the way I move, creates the whole picture towards what my life will eventually look like. Is is going to be a distinctive Rembrandt or an abstract Monet? Or is it going to be something all my own? I hope one day my foundation for my canvas will be complete and I can start filling in my own techniques. Foundations are very important to any painting, they provide the structure and basis, of which, is the artists intention. The intention is the most important, because it states the theme of the work of art, or in this case, my life. Themes are particularly hard to come by, there have been soo many...why would one want to be like the other? My message is going to be very different and inspiring to those who don't have their own theme. Something that people can look and learn from, to make the world better, to inspire those who have no inspiration. I want people to look back on my life fondly and say, "She had a vision that changed the lives of many.". In a world like today, full of war, anger, racism, hate, and God knows what else, I feel that it is in my civil duty as an occupant of this planet, to create something beautiful and different, that just fucking says something, where it seems like everything now means nothing. It isn't that I'm being cynical, its that I want people to believe again, believe in the beauty of life and all that it has planned for us.

Make it fit

I noticed today, as I was packing the back of a truck that I had a knack for making things fit into place. Like a gigantic game of tetras almost, one could say. If there was a round hole,I would most defiantly figure out a way to make a square box fit. I am almost 100 percent certain, that anyone would find the determination to make something fit into a space, in order to make things easier (ie making one trip instead of two). However, when it comes to a relationships, people tend to let their determination dwindle.
In relationships, today, there is a definite noticeable difference between both, younger couples and older couples. Presently speaking, about one in three marriages ends in divorce. A sea of people defeated by their differences and the unwillingness to work things out. For the older generation, marriages for the most part, tend to last. Why is this? Has the modern world, thrown away the simple rules of understanding and acceptance? Has our culture become so fast paced that staying in relationship for more that two minutes became impossible? Did the modern relationship develop a severe case of ADD?
Your answer, yes. Today, not only is it hard to find someone with common interests; it is twice as easy shrug someone off for the slightest "weird" thing, and then treat them as if they never existed. Back in the day, when a man clipped his toe nails in bed, the women would simply clean the bed sheets. Today, if a man clips his toe nails in bed, it requires a large divorce settlement. People of today, are so eager to throw in the towel and wave the white flag of defeat. After all, such Television media such as Sex in the City, Cougarville and Entourage tell modern society, that relationships are about as expendable as owning a box of tampons.